Yes, it’s me your older self, 20 years down the road. I saw that you just had your Sweet 16th birthday party. I loved that you designed your own birthday invite by hand out of calligraphy. You know, that’s just a glimpse into what you’ll be doing down the road. You might dabble in the sciences for a little while but remember to keep up the dream of being a designer because one day you’ll come back to it and fall in love.
t looks like it’s been a difficult year of transition for you. Moving schools when you just made the Lettergirls team and scoring your first straight A’s, I’d be pissed too. I know that sitting with your brother at the lunch table really feels like the end of the world, but don’t worry, soon enough you will find the right group of friends that will love you just as you are. Some of these friends will be there to champion you in many ways and be friends for life. One of them will also be your bridesmaid.
On the topic of boys. Yes, I know that you also feel like you’re the ugly duckling and that all of your guy friends end up liking your best friend, but trust me, there is one in store for you. One that will blow all of these guys out of the water. He will be the exact type of person that you need and he will not just be the love of your life, but he will be everything you’ve dreamed of but better. He will be your champion, your best friend and your soul-mate. I know that you yearn to be loved and adored like all the “popular girls” at school but you are built for a very special purpose. That special purpose will be revealed slowly in time.
Oh and that prom thing, don’t sweat it, Sr. Prom is overrated even if your date stood you up. Go have a blast with your other friends and spend it on something for yourself. You won’t regret it…oh and that dress you didn’t get to wear? I remade it into something I wear today, and it rocks.
But meanwhile, enjoy being a young person. I know you hate your braces and honking big glasses (trust me, those will be back in.) The eczema will go away and you will look beautiful. Enjoy discovering new things and develop your skills and the things that you truly make you happy. Paint more and revel in the beauty around you.
You ARE beautiful, you ARE loved, you ARE worthy and there is an amazing journey and plan for your life. Just wait and enjoy the ride because you will be doing things and meeting people far beyond your wildest dreams. You DO matter and the experiences that you go through now will make you into a more sensitive and caring person for a greater purpose.
On the subject of popularity. I know that you yearn to be with “those” girls. But the pretty and popular girls may not know what it feels like to be an outcast, but you do and that is what is going to break your heart for a group of people that you will help. That is where you will become a game-changer. All of these gifts and talents in you will be used for that very purpose. Hang on, because the ride is crazy and tough, but know that it will all be for a greater purpose and it will make sense. Trust me, I’m just beginning to see it happen now and it’s exhilarating to know that all of the experiences that you’re going through, now helps me in what I’m doing now.
Sarah – 36 years and counting